Unconditional Love

Saturday, 9/30/2006 02:50:00 AM,

I feel so so terriby disgusted by the working life. It’s not about the work, but about the people. There’s something wrong with them man - u know work politics ? i miss studying, when all u think of is study and exams, nothing else to worry! =)
1. The first time I met this kind of thing was when I was working in Expeditors when the manager so wrongly accused me of doing something I had not done, which I had mentioned before.
2. Second, is in Coffee Bean. Something is so wrong with the asst manager. The first day I went to work, the asst manager ignored my presence. The whole incident is mentioned in the previous entry. The whole week she showed me the black face. What’s the problem with her man? Perhaps bcos I’m a Christian, cos she was there when the manager told me that she’s allergic to Christians. My assumption is that she wants to act sey – hao lian abit so that she can be promoted faster.
3. Today, she commented that I was untidy bcos of my hair. What’s the problem with her? I had already tied my hair as instructed. She was like so buai suang
4. Seeing that the glass door with afew handprints, she asked me to clean it. Then, I asked her with what. She told me to get old newspaper and cloth to clean. How to man? Usually people will use the wiper rite? So I asked her how to. U know what’s her reply? “Without the wiper cannot clean maeh?” – in a buai suang tone. Of course I don’t know how to clean with the newspaper with the cloth la. Seeing her black face and attitude make me wanna puke. I so wanted to reply her with, “ if u know, show me la. I don’t man.” But I didn’t. Then, I walked away in front of her to get cloth. I think she was so mad, cos I think she tot that I was ignoring her. So she called a colleague to teach me how to wipe. As the head manager was visiting the store though he wasn’t working, I think she complained to him. I guessed she complained to the manager too. Cos she didn’t smile when we were working together. Her attitude was like the asst manager. I used to think that she was better than the asst manager. But I’m not too sure now. What to do? Managers always have the upper hand. The head manager will of course listen to her than me. He asked me how was the work so far. I replied ok. Then he told me that all F&B stores have to do cleaning, washing…I know that. But it’s her that makes me feel so disgusted.
5. I was cleaning the table idily when she came over and asked, “very free hor? Go out and do service and clean the cupboard.” I can jolly well do it. But there were other staff talking and why didn’t she asked them to do it instead.
6. I wanted to sms my cell member about tml’s zone mtg, when the asst manager came out of the staff pantry and told me not to use my hp near the cashier. I was smsing at a spot when customers couldn’t see. Then, later I saw her using her hp so openly, even customers could see her using. As a manager, you hv to set the example what. If u don’t want ur staff to use hp, den don’t use. Who would want to follow a leader’s instructions when he himself is not following? He then is not worthy for the followers to follow. Then, I asked my colleague how come she can use her hp? She told me cos she’s more superior. Yes, she is. But still, she has to set the example. A leader is not a leader when he doesn’t have any followers.
7. Also, I met her on Thursday after submitting a photocopied of my ic and bank book along the road. I wanted to smile at her, but she pretended not to see me. So dao lor. I’m being so what. But there’s so unlike what a leader will behave.
Throughout my stay at Coffee Bean, I like making ice blend drinks, but I really don’t like the asst manager’s attitude. I so wanted to quit the job. I don’t even need the money. I rather teach man, getting a much higher pay. Work at Coffee Bean with so low pay and yet have to suffer under the asst manager.
I can conclude: a manager is definitely not a leader unless he has committed followers who will follow him all the way. Of course, I wont for Coffee Bean. They are not worthy of me following. But I guess it’s God’s will for me to be there to shine His light in the darkness that is around there. I apologised to the asst manager about my attitude that I showed her. I didn’t really showed attitude, but didn’t smile and ignored her presence whenever I see her - but that’s like behaving what normal person will do. But by doing that, I’m not shining His Light and showing love to those who are unlovable.

U must be wondering how come I’m not sleeping after a long day of work. I feel so mad about what happen that I cant sleep. But I have to make myself sleep soon cos I’m meeting Eunice in the morning to do décor for tml’s zone mtg.