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Vivien Lim

Studying in SIM, Bachelor in Business Marketing

12 Sept 88

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Friday, 10/28/2005 04:29:00 PM, How was i saved?


There was a gal(now my best friend)whom i quarelled with often.She was from the same class as me.She frequently asked me to play basketball with her church friends.ALthough i like bball,i still rejected her many appeals.After that, i will usually complain to my mum of this friend of mine (eunice)who kept pestering me to play bball with her church friends.Also there was this want of studying with eunice,i do not know why but i believe it's placed by God so that eunice can bring me to church. For example, when we were supposed to meet at a 530pm she would only leave church at 530!And the church is not near tamp,it's at katong!!!Delaying my time!!!!I was so frustrated then.Sensing my frustration, she tried asking me to join her.After much persuation,i didnt know why i agreed. =)When i went church with her my mum wasnt around so nobody would bother much as well.
The problem arose when she came back.After much going out on saturdays and sundays,i finally told her that i am a christian.She was kinda agitated,but i went on with life ignoring her disapproval.Then she would always tell me that i could be a christian but i could not go for baptism.As what normal parents will say...
The week before i went for water baptism,eunice,evan,jess and i met up after sch.Then, i called my mum saying that i was going for baptism on that coming saturday.This time, she was alot more furious.I feared to go home...Later that nite,jess and i had share holder mtg(for all baptism candidates).I reached home quite late.She was talking on the phone with my aunt about me going for baptism.Upon reaching home,i stayed in my room the entire nite.
The day before my baptism,eunice and i stayed at amanda's hse.This was to prevent my mum from stopping me in the morning before baptism.Some parents will lock their hse doors so that their kids cannot go for baptism.STill,wee had a fun time there at her hse.
This is a another short testimony of mine.I hope the ppl out there reading will be encouraged by it,and perhaps also get to know better of my background


, 10/28/2005 04:25:00 PM, My Short Testimony


My relationship with my mum was terrible. The thought of seeking refuge from those conflicts at home after becoming a Christian was proven wrong. Conflicts with my mum soon arose. She was already against Christianity, what more me becoming a Christian! Thus, she would find fault in every area of my life. For example, she would say that I was not studying enough for my ‘O’s when I actually was. She claimed that the time spent in Church could be used for studying instead. However, my ‘O’ level grades had improved tremendously as compared to my Mid-Year and Preliminary exams. If you honour Him, He will honour you too. In the difficult and trying times, I tried to seek shelter but could not find one except under the shadow of the Almighty. That was where I obtained my strength, hope, grace, Friend, my everything.

My family was filled with violence ever since I as young. Everything was so chaotic. My dad used violence to get his way in everything, smashing things whenever and wherever he like. So hatred for him filled my heart, seeing how he had treated my mum. My parents divorced when I was young, depriving me of experiencing what love was. So in most cases like this the mum may be closer to the children. For me it’s only true to some extent. We go out together but I had never shared anything personal with her. I just found it hard and strange to share things with her. We couldn’t relate and understand each other. So when she tried talking to me about her problems I would shut her up, and vice versa. I always asked God why He had given me such a family. However, after becoming a Christian, I have realized that there is a reason for what God does, to mould us into what He wants us to be.
I carried my burdensome past wherever I went, building high walls around myself, afraid that people might discover them. I was set free from those bondages during encounter camp, and experienced God’s tangible love. I was transformed from one who didn’t know where she was heading in life to one who is full of a sense of purpose in existence. My relationship with my mum has improved ever since she saw the changes in me. I am not so hot tempered and violent as I used to be. The way I convey things to her has changed for the better – more well mannered, caring, appreciative of her being in my life.


Sunday, 10/23/2005 12:55:00 PM, A Long Day


i went for early morning prayer as usual today.Adora came too so we had breakfast at Olive Branch.When we went back to the auditorium,amanda was already there and i also realised that the position of my bag had changed.It was changed to between amanda and adora. How strange!I have always prefered to sit at the side, so of course i placed my bag there.There can only be one reason why my bag was shifted.If u are reading,and if u know the reason, jus continue reading.My stuff wasnt stolen,and i believe nobody from church would be so bothered by changing the position of it.I mean, who would? i can only think of one person who was at the scene of place who told me that she didnt know who shifted my bag and she wasnt the one.Her motive? i know...to sit with the person whom she's infactuated with.Shake head!Why am i saying this?I am trying to let u guys see that this shouldnt be the case.For the sake of sitting with the person she like, she resorted to lying.This can happen to either anybody who wants to cover their guilt so that others wouldnt know.
Then my cell went for lunch.Some were missing.Merri went parkway for lunch with small vivien, alethea;sherni was late so she went for 2nd service.amanda joined her;others had meeting.Then the committed ones had class at the theatrette.Amanda and merri were missing.so i called them.Merri was on the way back from pp so she will be late.i called amanda and she hung up twice,so i messsaged her of her class jus in case she couldnt pick up hp.Y did amanda go for 2nd service when she had already went for 1st?I know not but wenli wants me to get her out.
After that, i joined adora and sab.we went to the lounge at church to study.We spent most of the time sharing abt stuff.Then we felt that we need to pray more as a zone.when we are flames for God individually, we can then be a fire that cannot be extinguished easily when we gather together.When eunice and amelia joined us later, we had prayer mtg.in the midst of it,andrew told us that we had to vacate as church was closing soon.After that,eunice, sab and i went to the airport to send terry off.we ate earlier dinner at popeye's.Eunice and i shared a meal as usual.then we waited for time to fly.terry was flying off at 830pmlike that.many ppl(including Geners) was present.terry,jodin,karen,marve and one from adult cell were going india today for mission trip.We prayed them before they depart from us.
wenli,sab,eunice and i took the same bus home.I alighted at 201 and walked home.
Eunice and i talked for a long time,till 1245 like .our conversation was cut when her hp had no batt...


Friday, 10/21/2005 07:44:00 PM, 2 People, 2Paths


Two people, two paths
Eric Harris (One of the Columbine killers) and Rachel Joy Scott were born just days apart. They lived just a few miles away from each other. But in many ways, they couldn’t have been more different.
Eric was a bitter, angry person who went out of his way to give voice to his inward bitterness. Much of the time, he seemed to hate the nearly everything he saw in this world, including himself.
Rachel chose love, compassion, chose to serve God with a passion.
We can’t describe inner motivations and outward behaviours of these 2 young people.
Both talked about starting a “chain reaction” Rachel wrote a paper entitled “My ethics. My codes of Life.” Her core values: trust, honesty, compassion, love, and the desire to believe the best about people. She said, “ my codes may seem like a fantasy that can never be reached, but test them for yourself, and see the kind of effect that have in the lives of people around you. You just may start a chain reaction.”
Eric spoke of a quite different type of chain reaction. He hoped to kill hundreds of innocent students and thereby unleash a period of chaos and terror.
Eric didn’t start out life deciding he wanted to be a mass murderer. Rather, his life took shape step-by-step as he made decisions all along the way,
Neither did Rachel announce on her birthday that she wanted to be a devoted disciple of Jesus. Instead it was thru a series of fits and starts that she decided, over a period of years, to gradually give more and more of herself to God
Today, both Rachel’s words and the example of her life challenge us to choose the good path and to tell others about it whenever we can.

Rachel carried a torch, the torch of truth, the torch of compassion, the torch of love, the torch of good news of Jesus Christ, her Saviour and Lord, who was not ashamed of even in her hour of death. The torch has fallen from Rachel’s hands. Who will pick the torch up again?


, 10/21/2005 07:17:00 PM, OH NO!


I've not worked for this week! that's terrible! Cos their staff are having tests. so we cant go in.Oh no when will be our tests too? Hearing of tests freaks me out man!Who will like test.If u are like me who dont like, then u are normal,and not having any fever.Ok that's all for this stuff.
I set my kettle on fire yst.I boiled the water for 3hrs under intense heat.I didnt even rmb that i was boiling water till my mum came back and asked if i was boiling water.Imagine i didnt even know i was boiling and wasnt even thirsty.If only i was, then the kettle can still be used.EXpectedly, the bottom became chao ta...oh no...and it cant be used anymore. it actually quite new.Im jus so so sorry...This was not the first time i boiled water for so long. there was once i boiled the water till it was left 1/4 full.So terrible rite? i know...but i forgot mah...dont have good memory.
I had been reading Rachel's Tear.It's quite a sad story. she was shot for her faith in God.There was these guys who didnt believe in God.Their hearts were so filled with hatred for Christians.You know what! The gunmen were actually rachel's friends, and Klebold(one of the killers) had a crush on her.I can still remember what the killer,Eric Harris who grabbed rachel by her hair ,and asked her the question:"Do u believe in God?"
"You know i do,"replied RAchel.
"Then go be with Him,"responded Harris before shooting her in the head.
She was only 17 then.If she was still alive, she would be 24 yrs old.The killers actually had in mind who they wanted to kill b4 the Columbine killings.They didnt kill Christians but commited Christians!It is a very glorious thing to die for Jesus cos the He has reserved special seats for them. Hallelujah!


Sunday, 10/16/2005 10:38:00 PM, The Days @ Work


1st Day:
i was very early for work today.Left house at 0836,reached hougang at 0915.It was very early as i was supposed to start work at 1000.When i reported for work,they thought that the manager had employed a small girl.And then they continued doing their own stuff as if i dont exist at all.They expect you to push away the movable cart away so that u can enter,when you donet know if u are allowed to.
How can a small girl be working when she has school?Haha...do i look that young?=)That's a good thing indeed!
I learnt how to play around with the money box.I was the cashier from 1000-1500.Another new girl came and she took over my role and i went to the kitchen to learn to cook some dished while the supervisor was with the girl,guiding her as well as flirting with her...Aiyo...shake head.He's not even handsome,not educated,still want to flirt.Not that im jealous or despise him but why flirt? doesnt he any better things to do?
The crew leader taught me how to fry the chicken.The chicken there is very oily!They are deep fried 3 times!My shift was over at 1600.Then eunice took over my shift.Our leader made us copy the recipe and she will test us tml...
I went home 1st as i still had time.Did some stuff at home before going to church for class -"Building the spirirtual House"Amazingly,Maxine was there!She just finished her exams so she came with her mum.We sat together with wenli and liuyan.Of the entire zone, only 4 of us came.Eunice was working night shift.

2nd Day:
Did cashier again...but facing the place was very hot due to the afternoon sun and the hot lights shining in the store.Today, i learnt how to fry burgers ,e.g.fish,chicken,light pepper,crispy chicken...
I rushed to church.i had choir audition again!Aiyo...so many...This time eunice couldnt accompany me as she was working the night shift.I went to the lounge to warm my voice up.I think outside could hear my voice since i could hear the footsteps of people walking up and down.When time was almost up i went to look for the auditioner.throughout the time i was paniking.Pst Haziel was the auditioner.She wanted me to sing other songs as she didnt know the songs that i have prepared.I knew that i was off beat and off key,so terrible.I could have done better but i dont know what happened today...
I was the only one there.Then hui yi came, and i ate with her.Finally there was someone who could eat with me!She was actually looking for someone to eat with her too...=)Then weizheng joined us.
Before i was abt to sleep,at abt 12,eunice mum msged me that she cant contact eunice since 1045pm.She was supposed to fin work at 10pm.Then i realised that the superviser didnt allow her to leave at 10pm.how could he?Doest he know that girls have to be home early?It's dangerous for a girl to go home that late!Do u know what time she fin work? 11.23pm!!!So late!!!
3rd Day :
Realised that the superviser does nothing much but talk.I learnt how to make pancake today.I took such a long time to learn 1 pancake.Do u know that making one isnt easy?It's easy to put one into ur mouth but it's certainly not easy to make one of the proper shape and size man!Then the crew leader was annoyed that i took such a long time to make one nice one!Let me tell u guys something man!The order there is corrupted! What do i mean by that?There's no proper schedule for them to teach u new techniques.they expect you to do things urself.They dont bother to teach you unless the superviser asks them to do so.Then wont the new workers be standing there doing nothing?That's just my opinion...
I fin work at 3pm and Eve the new girl took the night shift.Eunice didnt work today.Then i went hoem to have a good rest.The pay is low and they expect you to be fast and efficient,so tiring!


Monday, 10/10/2005 10:19:00 PM, A Day gone


eunice and i could i have started work today, but because we didnt know if we should work in that company.We need to take a jab or a pill typhoid.AFter much consideration,we decided to take up the job but it was already quite late and the clinic closed at 4!Thus we had to wait till 7 for it to open again.Meanwhile, we went to the library.We quarrelled and patched things up soon after that,This was one of the very rare time we quarrel ever since a long time.I hope we can keep up the good work though iron sharps iron...=)
We walked back to the clinic.We took the pills instead of the jab.The injection needle simply turns me off,haha cos i didnt take BSG when i was pri 6 =)
Off to work @Hougang tml.........


Saturday, 10/08/2005 08:28:00 PM, Saturday Night Fever


Eunice: Hi, it's me here! im stealing some space to say my piece. Well, today there was cell and im staying over at vivien's hse. Injection. Sleep. Work. Service. Sleep. Sleep. Sleep. some things that are on my mind.. ok i dun like typing..vivien's laughing at me as i do so.. ok i'll stick to writing. goodnight world.

Vivien: Haha it's me back again!She's gone.......=)Actually i dont have to go cell today but bcos i wanted to give brenda's present.Her present had been in my hse for quite some time.she went to cell last week but i didnt.so i could have spent the time doing other things.Anyway,eunice and i arranged to meet at 115 at 201bus stop. then we saw merri on the bus.We were early!For once,together, we were more than early.Eunice shalled today....haha...she was pretty nervous, with her gestures here and there.
After that, the cell went parkway to eat.As usual we took a long time to settle down and by the time we reached home it was kinda of late.
There she is at my hse.....peeping at wat im typing now....=) she will teach me piano later.yeah!


Friday, 10/07/2005 11:21:00 PM, When commitment calls


eunice and i were supposed to attend a job briefing today.but i couldnt make it as i had cell,so eunice didnt go as well. i think the person in charge must be kinda angry.she called quite afew times since yesterday,maybe not many people are not interest?who knows?if we are selected for the job we have to sell walls ice cream in the evenings.the damai gals were grounded as their parents want them to study for their exams.so the core met up at xf's hse.i had to meet wei zheng first as she didnt know how to go to her hse.and she was 20min late!
Anyway,we talked and discussed cell ideas.xf was super playful,maybe overstress?we stayed there from 3-5plus then we went home.
Actually wanted to play badminton with eunice but she was going to airport to read with her parents...so i wanted to jog instead. but on further consideration i didnt cos i just bathed not too long ago and i dont wish to perspire again but i will jog sometime this week,maybe tml or sun?must exercise!


Thursday, 10/06/2005 11:47:00 PM, Job hunting


eunice and i went looking for jobs today after a long rest at home.we went for interview as a service crew in water rise.they will only tell us if we are shortlisted tml.After that, she watched me eat dinner...haha =) no la she was reading her book.we were thinking of our work schedules.i cant work on some fris cos there's cell.if we have cell on fri then i can work the whole on sat.the gals cant meet on sat.and sometimes we have gen united and zone mtg, so my working days are not very fixed. eunice can work from mon to sat morning.we walked home.i practised my piano skills (taught by eunice) thanks =)


Tuesday, 10/04/2005 11:43:00 PM, Class Chalet ( 3-4Oct 05 )


Elena and Ethan met earlier to buy some snacks for the chalet later.I met them at downtown east mac. they had already eaten.Elena had to go off when i reached.so bad rite?Haha =) no la she had work in the evening.we waited for melvin till 5plus.We booked into the chalet and we had free entrance admission-1chalet only entitled to 4 free admissions.So we had already useed 3.Not long after settled down sarah and din came.Slowly the people start coming in.And we realised that only abt half the class was present,the rest couldnt come.Gerald met joyce and pei sian on 2 different bus on his way to the chalet.and the both of them werent going for the chalet.joyce going to grandma hse and pei sian was heading for work.we ate dinner at the open area.Then we went to the arcade.we played the matching game as a class- class spirit!
AT 9 we rushed back to the chalet to watch the 9 0'clock show. we met ms tan ee ling on the way back.we invited her to join us today.She brought her son, benjamin and her husband. her son is cute-20mths old.she told us that we wont be splitting class if all has clear pass.there are pros and cons...
elena,ethan,din,eugene tonned the whole night playing dai di. haha could even hear their laughter when i was sleeping.i think i kept waking up,wondering who was up and who wasnt but i couldnt see as i was not wearing specs...i only saw them when i really woke up at sunrise.we then went mac to have our breakfast.Pin hua wanted to give me the drink when we were ordering.but dont know y i ordered my own meal and she ordered hers.when she was eating, she gave away her hash brown,and couldnt fin the milo cos ethan bought back for her milo when he went to grab a bite b4 we left chalet.only when gerald told me that i could have just ordered the egg muffin and pin hua could have given me the rest.i could have saved some $$.anyway,after eating we left.elena,ethan,melvin and i walked to the interchange cos we find the walking distance short while the rest took a 1 stop bus ride to the interchange.ethen,elena,pin hua and i took bus 15 home. the moment they got onto the bus they fell asleep. they must be very tired.i was the 1st to alight,hopefully they dont oversleep and miss their stop.
wanted to cycle to pasir ris park today with eunice but she just told me it was gg to rain and not if she's gg.waited for her to reply till abt 650 then i finally decidede to go jogging instead.my plan was destroyed cos i have not cycled for quite long already.
haha guess wat? i played reversi with my mum at night. i was actually reading a book when i suddenly wanted to play that with my mum.haha...i dont know y =) and i even taught her how to play.i think this is one of the most seldom time we spend playing together, other than that we actually seldom talk much.


Sunday, 10/02/2005 11:58:00 PM, Pst Brian Bailey came!


He shared for 2 services.Adora,sherni,amanda,su ann, wenli and i stayed for both services. the rest only stayed for the 1st service.Wow!both services were good.The 2nd one was good man!1st:overcoming the world. 2nd service: overcoming the sins/flesh in our lives. there was altar call for the 2nd service.God really did a mighty work in our hearts during the altar call.
After 2nd service we went down to olive branch (OB) to celebrate wenli's present.Jia rong and eunice made agar agar yst as the cake for wenli.it looked wobbly when the candle was placed in the centre.And they added to much citrius acid in the agar agar.oh how sour will it be!moreover eunice doesnt know how to cook!sherni,amanda and i sat inside ob while the rest outside.sherni and amanda are still not on talking terms.so the situation there was quite weird.as we were walking to ob sherni told me that amanda not talking to her was perhaps bcos she wanted to test her reactions and patience.the problem is actually is very small yet they made things so big.
after eating i went out to talk to the rest while the 2 of them did their work.i had to go in when amanda pulled me in to test her her science.there were several ques that she couldnt answer,so i believe she hasnt finished studying.how can u ask a person to test u when u have not studied.it's just like going for an exam without studying,hoping to fail.but anyway i tested her.she was so distracted in ob. i think we shouldnt study together in future. might as well stay at home to study when she can concentrate better at home.sherni had to go when her parents had to leave church.
I left church with adora,wenli and liu yan when amanda's parents left with her.we walked to parkway to take bus.Haha guess wat! liuyan and wenli went shopping!we went home of course.then me and adora talked as usual la....after she left i read a book.bcos i was quite sleepy, i fell asleep b4 finishing reading the chapter.oh no!
spent my QT when i reached home.Left for aunty's hse when my mum reached home.they were talking abt how my youngest aunty treat my grandma and the maid.She's so heartless man! u will be disgusted by how she treats them e.g. scolding and forbidding them to use certain parts of the living room,toilet.....it's as if she owns the hse.But the thing is the hse belongs to my grandma,how can she do such a thing to her?!Till now she forbids my grandma to use the toilet and fridge that my uncle had to buy a portable toilet and fridge to put in her room.When they want to cook rice or any food, my aunty woud purposely switch off the plug and off the fire...when grandma wants to bathe my aunty would purposely stay in the toilet for a long time....many life incidents....that when i am typing this i can recount of the many incidents that happened to my grandma.
the maid told my relatives that my grandma cries everynite.Imagine having brought up a son and this is how he and his wife treat her.She must be so heart broken.though my grandma tends to be naggy at times but after all she is his mother and her mother-in-law!
if only grandma wants to claim the hse back...leaving them homeless.when they got married grandma allowed them to stay in her hse.Now see wat happened...............................................