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Vivien Lim

Studying in SIM, Bachelor in Business Marketing

12 Sept 88

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Saturday, 9/30/2006 02:50:00 AM,


I feel so so terriby disgusted by the working life. It’s not about the work, but about the people. There’s something wrong with them man - u know work politics ? i miss studying, when all u think of is study and exams, nothing else to worry! =)
1.
The first time I met this kind of thing was when I was working in Expeditors when the manager so wrongly accused me of doing something I had not done, which I had mentioned before.
2. Second, is in Coffee Bean. Something is so wrong with the asst manager. The first day I went to work, the asst manager ignored my presence. The whole incident is mentioned in the previous entry. The whole week she showed me the black face. What’s the problem with her man? Perhaps bcos I’m a Christian, cos she was there when the manager told me that she’s allergic to Christians. My assumption is that she wants to act sey – hao lian abit so that she can be promoted faster.
3. Today, she commented that I was untidy bcos of my hair. What’s the problem with her? I had already tied my hair as instructed. She was like so buai suang
4. Seeing that the glass door with afew handprints, she asked me to clean it. Then, I asked her with what. She told me to get old newspaper and cloth to clean. How to man? Usually people will use the wiper rite? So I asked her how to. U know what’s her reply? “Without the wiper cannot clean maeh?” – in a buai suang tone. Of course I don’t know how to clean with the newspaper with the cloth la. Seeing her black face and attitude make me wanna puke. I so wanted to reply her with, “ if u know, show me la. I don’t man.” But I didn’t. Then, I walked away in front of her to get cloth. I think she was so mad, cos I think she tot that I was ignoring her. So she called a colleague to teach me how to wipe. As the head manager was visiting the store though he wasn’t working, I think she complained to him. I guessed she complained to the manager too. Cos she didn’t smile when we were working together. Her attitude was like the asst manager. I used to think that she was better than the asst manager. But I’m not too sure now. What to do? Managers always have the upper hand. The head manager will of course listen to her than me. He asked me how was the work so far. I replied ok. Then he told me that all F&B stores have to do cleaning, washing…I know that. But it’s her that makes me feel so disgusted.
5. I was cleaning the table idily when she came over and asked, “very free hor? Go out and do service and clean the cupboard.” I can jolly well do it. But there were other staff talking and why didn’t she asked them to do it instead.
6. I wanted to sms my cell member about tml’s zone mtg, when the asst manager came out of the staff pantry and told me not to use my hp near the cashier. I was smsing at a spot when customers couldn’t see. Then, later I saw her using her hp so openly, even customers could see her using. As a manager, you hv to set the example what. If u don’t want ur staff to use hp, den don’t use. Who would want to follow a leader’s instructions when he himself is not following? He then is not worthy for the followers to follow. Then, I asked my colleague how come she can use her hp? She told me cos she’s more superior. Yes, she is. But still, she has to set the example. A leader is not a leader when he doesn’t have any followers.
7. Also, I met her on Thursday after submitting a photocopied of my ic and bank book along the road. I wanted to smile at her, but she pretended not to see me. So dao lor. I’m being so what. But there’s so unlike what a leader will behave.
Throughout my stay at Coffee Bean, I like making ice blend drinks, but I really don’t like the asst manager’s attitude. I so wanted to quit the job. I don’t even need the money. I rather teach man, getting a much higher pay. Work at Coffee Bean with so low pay and yet have to suffer under the asst manager.
I can conclude: a manager is definitely not a leader unless he has committed followers who will follow him all the way. Of course, I wont for Coffee Bean. They are not worthy of me following. But I guess it’s God’s will for me to be there to shine His light in the darkness that is around there. I apologised to the asst manager about my attitude that I showed her. I didn’t really showed attitude, but didn’t smile and ignored her presence whenever I see her - but that’s like behaving what normal person will do. But by doing that, I’m not shining His Light and showing love to those who are unlovable.


U must be wondering how come I’m not sleeping after a long day of work. I feel so mad about what happen that I cant sleep. But I have to make myself sleep soon cos I’m meeting Eunice in the morning to do décor for tml’s zone mtg.


Wednesday, 9/27/2006 03:07:00 PM,


This week was my first week working at Coffee Bean. After feeling up the application form last week, the manager told me that she’s allergic to Christians. ??? She commented that most of them always told her that they couldn’t make it for their timeslots last min due to Church activities.
Anyway, Monday was my first day working there. The asst manager always sua pi qi. I stood at the doorway of the staff entrance after putting my bag in the drawer, hoping that the asst manager will teach me or ask me to do something. But she didn’t. To avoid people saying that I wasn’t doing anything, I asked the asst manager who was walking around and not carrying or doing anything in particular, what I was supposed to do. She replied, “Can u wait patiently? Can’t u see that I’m busy?” How was I supposed to know, right? She didn’t even tell me anything. After abt 15 min, The first thing that she asked me to do was service. What did she mean by service? She asked me to walk around the place and clear whatever rubbish or leftover food could be seen lying around. It really takes humility. The previous job also like that. After that, she furiously told me to tie my hair. But my hair is so short, how am I supposed to tie? So man bu jiang li….
They wanted to teach me how to make ice blended drinks but most of the customers ordered hot drinks and mocha ice blend. Thus, I only practiced mocha ice blend for 5hrs, of course I did other things too. The head manager was there too. He was nice, encouraged me to keep up the good work when I did things correctly and told me not to panic.
I worked from 3pm to 11 pm yesterday. I wanted to change some stuff at Isetan with my mum – she took a day’s leave. But she was late, so we didn’t had time to change. At 3.01pm, I was outside Coffee Bean when the asst manager called to ask where I was. She sounded so furious. I was only a minute late, why kick up such a big fuss? She was quite pek chek when I didn’t tie my hair. I didn’t see a need to tie since my hair is short. But anyway, I borrowed a rubberband from a kind colleague. The manager came abt 4pm. She greeted me with a ‘Hi’ and I greeted her back softly. But I guess she didn’t see nor hear. So she told another colleague, “when somebody say hi to u, u will say hi back rite?” – indirect sarcasm ar? I thought, “ Is she like the asst manager?” Later, the manager taught me how to make ice blends using a simplified table form. 1 colleague was kinda of envious, asking her how come I have this kind of treatment? Then she replied, “ That’s how I teach, not bcos of bianess.” =)
For dinner, the asst manager asked around, “ who wanted dinner at KFC?” But she didn’t ask me until the manager asked. Then after some consideration, she asked me to try Coffee Bean’s food. The cost price is actually cheap, but bcos of it’s freshness and service, they sell the food at a higher price. So I had free dinner. =)
At abt 9plus, there was a huge crowd who wanted iceblend. So I got to apply what she had taught into practice. Though I was quite panicky and forgot some steps, making coffee ice blend is fun. U know what, I had never expected that she added 5 more drinks for me to make, in addition to the busyness. The additional drinks were for training. Then she told me what I did correctly and wrongly. At the end of it, she offered me 1 drink for my first day learning under her. Cool man. =)
She told another colleague that I had passed world war 3, and asked her to teach me how to do closing for muffins.
Overall, my second day was better bcos the manager was there, though I couldn’t go for the Ken and Annie Schisler meeting. I so wanted to go for that, but bcos of work. If I can say, she is better than the asst manager who thinks that she’s very high in position. Actually, the higher the position u go, the more u have to serve – so that people would want to follow u. don’t lose ur temper any old how and people will respect u.
That’s all for now. =)


Tuesday, 9/19/2006 03:10:00 PM,


How the Apostles died?

Peter – The Apostle with the Food-Shaped Mouth
He died as a martyr, was crucified. He pleaded to be crucified upside down because he was not worthy to die as his Lord had died. Thus, he was nailed to a cross head-downward.

Andrew – The Apostle of Small Things
He was crucified in Achaia, in Southern Greece, near Athens. Those who crucified him lashed him to his cross instead of nailing him, in order to prolong his suffering. He hung on the cross for 2 days.

James – The Apostle of Passion
Herod had him killed with a sword – beheaded. (Acts 12:1-3)
Herod wanted to use tensions between the church and Jewish religious leaders to his political advantage.

John – The Apostle of Love
He died in AD98. He was so frail in his final days at Ephesus that he had to be carried into the church.

Phillip – The Bean Counter
He was among the first of apostles to suffer martyrdom. He was put to death by stoning at Heliopolis, in Phrygia (Asia Minor), 8 years after the martyrdom of James

Nathaniel – The Guileless One
No reliable record of how he died. One tradition says he was tied up in a sack and cast into the sea. Another tradition says he was crucified. By all accounts, he was martyred like all the apostles except John

Matthew – The Tax Collector
No reliable record of how he was put to death. But earliest traditions indicate he was burned at the stake. He walked away from a lucrative career without ever giving it a second thought remained willing to give his all for Christ to the very end.

Thomas – The Twin
Strongest traditions say he was martyred for his faith by being run through the spear - a fitting form of martyrdom for one whose faith came of age when he saw the spear mark in his Master’s side for one who longed to be reunited with his Lord.

James, son of Alphaeus – The Less
Some say he was stoned; others say he was beaten to death. Still others say he was crucified like his Lord.

Simon – The Zealot
No reliable record of what happened to him, but all accounts say he was killed for preaching the Gospel. He was once willing to kill and be killed for a political agenda within the confines of Judea, found a more fruitful cause for which to give his life in the proclamation of salvation – for sinners out of every nation, tongue and tribe.

Judas (Not Iscariot) – The Apostle with 3 Names
Tradition says he was clubbed to death for his faith

Judas Iscariot – The Traitor
After betraying Jesus, his conscience immediately came alive. Judas saw that He had been condemned, hw was remorseful and brought back the 30 pieces of silver to the chief priests, saying, “I have sinned be betraying innocent blood.”
His remorse was not the same as repentance. He was sorry, not because he had sinned against Christ, but because his sin did not satisfy him the way he had hoped. He departed and hung himself (Matt 27:5) His conscience would not be silenced, and that’s the very essence of hell. Sin brings guild, and Judas’s sin brought him misery. His remorse was not genuine repentance. If that were the case, he would not have killed himself. He was merely sorry because he did not like what he felt.


Monday, 9/18/2006 04:20:00 PM,


Woke up so late today.I could finally really really rest.Ever since exams started, i didnt have a good nite rest.I have dark eye rings. =(. Im not working anymore. YAY!!!
The job was so tiring. I had to do many things, especially when there are 2 mangers sitting behind. Whatever I did, they could see. Whenever I rested for a while, either manager would always say,” u have nothing to do, then I want to teach u something new.” Either that or they would find something for me to do.

On Wednesday, Eliza (operation manager) passed me a set of inbound documents, which I had to generate a new receipt to be passed to the warehouse ppl, and key in the data from the documents and then print out receiving receipts using excel . The inbound documents were supposed to come together with the permit. But on Wednesday, I didn’t receive from her. Thus, I asked Hafiz (1 of the colleagues, who was sitting in front of me) how come there wasn’t any permit. He couldn’t find the permit when he checked from the edoc capture (something like outlook express whereby customers will send in orders or receipts). Nevermind about that, I didn’t staple the set of inbound documents with the receiving receipts cos I still need the data to key into excel. I could save time – by sending down the receipts to the warehse first and they would send the receipts up to the office while I did the excel. Before I went for lunch, I remembered very vividly that I placed the inbound documents on top of ‘Remington’ file on my desk.
When I came back from lunch, Eliza asked me where my permit was (thinking that I lost the permit). Then, I told her that I didn’t receive the permit when she passed me the documents. I wanted to show her the set of inbound documents, which she passed to me. She was fuming mad be then. She said that she didn’t see nor took the inbound documents when she came to my desk. Hearing that, I was quite panicky, and I searched frantically thru the files that were on my desk. But I was very sure that somebody must have taken my documents. What more, Eliza was still in the mood to go for her lunch. If the inbound documents really went missing, she would be so fuming mad. That somebody could also be the warehse ppl who might had came up and took it. But the prime suspect was still my manager, Eliza. Bcos she couldn’t possibly ask me where the permit was unless she had seen the inbound documents. I searched and tried to recall where I placed it for more than 2 hrs. When she came back for lunch, she asked if I had found it. I told her no and said that I remembered very clearly that I put on top of Remington file on my desk. Then she gave me the look that it’s your business, I gave u the documents so u are responsible for them, and suggested that I go to the ware hse to check if the ppl there had taken it. Still, I couldn’t find them. Thank God that Eliza went toilet when I came back. She’s the prime suspect!!! I searched the Toshiba file – the only file that was seen on her desk, and true enough I found it there!!! She took it intentionally and still want to push the blame to me!!! So yuan wang rite!!!! Imagine that I was so fuming mad – angrier than she was just now. I so wanted to blast at her. That would be a natural reaction of one who was accused so wrongly. But I remained my cool and composure. Blessed are the meek

The next day, the 2 managers complained to the HR dpt and then to Adecco that I was unwilling to learn and I showed bad attitude, which I didn’t. I accepted all work, which they had for me willingly even though I was tired. And about that incident on wed, I didn’t even show bad attitude though I was accused so wrongly. Hafiz could be one of my witnesses. So mad!! They told Adecco that they want to terminate me service. So yuan wang!!! It’s not abt the work nor the job, but the ppl. It’s always the ppl working there that make the workplace so sulky. This experience really gave me a bad impression of worklife. I was only a temp, and they did this kind of thing. They will be so kind in front of u, but behind ur back, they – even the managers backstab u. It’s their loss to sack me cos the ppl that they hire are worse off then me lor.
But blessed are the persecuted for righteousness’ sake. =)

Slacking now…


Friday, 9/15/2006 07:52:00 PM,


Monday (28/8) – Wed (30/8)
It was exams time for me during this period. I only had 3 papers. Haha. =) But The papers were generally okay, not as easy as you might think.

Adecco called me the day after I finished my exams when I was gg back to dmn. No time to rest sia. Dmn’s changing, neo going to demolish old block, and the new blk’s colour had became so disgusting. Though seeing orange once in a while will stimulate your creativity, too much of it will really make you so sick of it. Just imaging seeing everywhere orange when you go to school. Poor dunmanites.
I had to go to adecco (shaw) on 1sept to collect the time sheet. There goes my day of sleeping….zzzzz It’s just that I didn’t had enough sleep ever since study week.

Started work beginning of 4/9 at Expeditors as Temp Customers Service Assistant. There were 3 other persons who were new temp staff as well. All of them were older than me. We went through a short orientation.
There was this weird new temp staff, called Michelle. She’s kinda old alr, may be an auntie, based on what I think? I’m not really sure cos she dresses until very old, and the way she presents herself was horrendous. She also behaves very weirdly. She talks and mumbles to herself. And most of the staff there couldn’t really understand what she talks about. She just shoots and don’t really bother if we understand what she wants to say. Thus, we didn’t really bother what she said. Not that we are mean, but we really don’t understand a single thing.

Just yesterday, Alicia and I wanted to use the scanner (which is connected to the comp that Michelle is using) to fax the documents over to changi north. Alicia wanted me to try scanning and faxing on my own, while she guided me here and there. Michelle wasn’t at her desk at that moment. She came back to her desk while we were scanning. Impatiently, she asked, “ni ke yi qi lai ma? Wo de jiao hen suan. Wo yao zhuo” = can u do your scanning while standing? My legs are tired and I want to sit. Then I hesitated a moment cos we were still doing the scanning. Alicia was quite annoyed, so she replied Michelle saying, “ni bo ke yi rang ta zhuo wan xian ma? Zao bie de yi zhi zhuo xian la” = why cant u let her finish her work first? Get a chair from elsewhere first la. You know what? I was there laughing at the scene. Y is there such a funny person in the office. And then her skin still so think, she asked, “hen hao siao ma?” = very funny maeh? She didn’t get it. Then she stared at Alicia for a while. Alicia then said , “kan se mo kan?” = see what see? Michelle was so pai seH that she tried to look some where else. So funny la.

A moment ago, Michelle was using Christopher’s comp. When he came back, he didn’t chase her away, instead he went to do something else first. That’s basic courtesy right? Still, I will still have to work with her till I leave the company.

Actually, the job scope is more than being a customer service assistant cos I need to create new receipts and orders when order is sent to Expeditors. Then I have to do the pick list, reconcile, put away, a list to give to the warehouse in charge to remove the obsolete goods, etc. Have to follow a standard procedure. So confusing when the pop-ups of the software look so familiar!